Saturday, 24 April 2010

I Want To Break Free

I want to break free
I’m so self satisfied
Far too focussed
Too selfish
Too me me me

My Consultant Psychiatrist knows
I want to break free
This time she knows
It’s for real

It’s strange but it’s true
Mental Illness
Doesn’t make me feel blue

I have to be sure
That when I walk out
Those locked doors
I have to be free

But life still goes on
I can’t get used to myself
I don’t want to live on my own
God knows

My Consultant Psychiatrist knows
And God knows
I’ve got to make it on my own

So can’t you see
I’ve got to break free

1 comment:

  1. I wrote this in June 2009. It's loosely based on the Queen song of the same name. I felt hemmed in at the time as I was on Section on an Intensive Care Unit and wasn't allowed the ward door. I was very frustrated.The reference to blue means I was in a manic phase of my illness at the time, which is always good for the sufferer but not for those around him or her. The next stanza says when I get outside these locked doors I do not want to be followed by a Social Worker as in the past, at least not intrusively. I want to work in conjunction with all the professionals involved. The next stanza implies that betting divorced and having greatly reduced access to my daughter affected my mental health status, and I became manic when trying to deal with this loss.

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